Hi y'all - you certainly know how to make me blush with all your kind thoughts an' all!
As St Nick has said, we've chatted at length (sorry, Nick!) and I managed a little of an update. I've not been too well so spent more time listening to music whilst recovering. Quite a lot has happened since my last update so I'll bring you up to date in the shortest, most practical, way without moaning or wearing out your eyeballs with the minutiae of detail.
My voice is now permanently (extremely) croaky now, caused by repetitive
acid reflux (mentioned previously). My throat muscles have been over active fighting against acid reflux to the point they have grown so large that my throat is narrowed and my vocal chords are damaged. Options: Speech Therapy to use my throat muscles and vocal chords differently (I've tried this to no avail), surgery (I don't think this will be a good idea due to my breathing problems) or no action. The surgeon has confirmed that this problem was misdiagnosed previously as
pharyngeal webs.
Hepatic Steatosis (fatty liver disease) is still a problem as the 'extra filling' in my torso adversely affects my breathing.
Chronic Kidney Disease (stage 3) - no change.
Osteoarthritis & Rheumatoid Arthritis worsening in hands, knees & hips affecting mobility, agility etc.
Fibromyalgia: A pain in the neck - and everywhere else!
Emphysema. This was diagnosed from CAT scans and is now the most serious issue and seriously affects my life in so many negative ways. This is likely to be the one that gets me first so I've asked to be treated honestly over this, no gentle approaches, misleading hopes or other kindly bullsh1t -
shooting from the hip with a bit of the ol' straight talking only, please Doc.
PTSD, tinnitus and whatever else I suffer from seem to matter little at the moment with everything else that's going on. The thing is, a few days ago I stumbled across a website that mentioned a couple of kids I went to school with had died, at least one of them was a grand parent and it got me all a-thinking:
For the most part I've lived my life for the moment and enjoyed many years travelling the world, seeing many wonderful sights and making the most of every local opportunity to learn while having fun working, before attempting to settle down more recently. I have no children so do not have those memories to reflect upon nor is there any long-ago planted foliage I can take pride in having tended to over the years etc., etc., but I have still been busy in recent years. I have my audio collection which provides much pleasure to me and this is my interest in life these days. I still have BB's to fix, shelves to put up and so much more to do and, with all that's been going on in my life, the prevailing thought is: If my time is up I'll be very annoyed 'cos I'm just too busy - I ain't ready yet, I've too much to do!
:annoyed:
There's a lot more detail such as endless hospital and doctor appointments, masses of meds to take daily and constant struggles with some of the more basic things in life but Hey - I'm still here like a bad smell that won't go away!
Now. time for a look-see around this fantastic forum.......................